Defining the sin
I was wondering about the promises, now after Maria Tanase and my confession that my dark side is tempting me into the unknown.
What do you do if you can not keep your promises? If the other one is changing the rules, or yourself are becoming someone else?
When the social environment is forcing you to change? Should you become part of them? Should you try to change them, or to run away? Where is the line?
Is it good to stay and fight, or to run? Is the initial choice the most important, or the struggle to make it work, no matter of the premises and no matter of the costs? Are you guilty because you left? Are you guilty because you staid?
And then, why is better to come back from the woods? If you decided that you need to go, you must have some reasons, why than to come back? Is it better to go back and forth? Are you not breaking your promises by being there? Even wanting to be there is a big question mark. What made you want this? Is it wishing and dreaming a less sin?
I have no answers for these questions. All my life I was to fighting until all my strength dried out, then wishing, then running and then becoming someone else. Learning what I could learn, and moving forward. Always forward. If I was wrong, then you know what is lying for me in the future: „snake’s crawling and wind’s rattle”. Let’s meet there, on the other side! Are you in?